wise buyer in due time

New clothes, new shoes, new everything! I’m working hard just for myself, for my wants, for my so-called “vices”.

Last Sunday, I went shopping again for clothes. Pieces that I don’t know when and where to wear them. Am guilty on spending too much on clothes, shoes and bags - that’s my bad vice. Knowing that I still have newly purchased items, they’re lifeless. Sleeping inside my mounted closet and waiting to be noticed.

Most of the signature brands, I got them on sale, on bazaar, or such cheap places like 168 mall. The thing is, I bought all of them from my own pocket. Earlier this morning, as I arranged my closet, I saw this Blondie tee from Topshop which I got almost a year ago that I haven’t bother to wear! Sometimes, I forget or just didn’t notice that I have brand new clothes…. Unused.

Sigh.

When will I stop? Instead of adding those amount to my personal savings, it went straight to the mall. It’s not good anymore. I must take control.

 

grey

 

Am done with perfumes. Now let’s go back to basics.

 

maldita mode : ON

Fighting with the most badass b”tch left your heart pumping with anger. Your sense of sight turns black and all you want to do  is swear at her at the top of your lungs!

But this badass b*tch knows how to melt you down. Bringing your scrouching heart to  the normal heat and lets you adore  her once more.

Scream at her. Swear at her. But in the end, you’ll drown with her genuine kindness and sweetness. ♥

Her character is described as…..

” Ibang Klase! “

 

going back to the basics….

The more you push things to whatever you want it to be, the more it gets complicated.

Another lesson to learn or lemme say, a lesson should take in action. First, you study the reasons that caused such mishap. You learned that the littlest things can be disastrous. As simple as 1-2-3, you can change things for the better but then again, there’s the evil pride doing nothing but spoil down the fun.

You’re trapped in a web intentionally made to be larger than a castle. It gets too huge, it holds your own breath. And then you’ll stop and think. Tired of building and spinning. Maybe or just maybe, a small and simple web won’t create too much trouble. Eventually, you won’t feel that bad if the web started to wear out.

Going back to the basic means simple thing….

The look is plain, what you see is what you get, expectations are not allowed.

 

knowing your wicked sweet karma

How does it feel if someone hates you for no reason? Common! That person may have a reason — that is, if they will admit to themselves that they’re indeed envy to your new found happiness. They suck in moving forward so they intend to contaminate with their present status – miserable and regretful. But for you, it’s absurd. Really nonsense. Why not mind your own life?

I can’t made them to like me overnight. But if they crossed the line, that’s a different story. And yes, I did hurt people and made their day the worst. In some instances, I prick my enemy indirectly. I play dirty if that’s what you call it. And with that, the enemy hates me…. big time! That’s what you get from me. You’ve asked for a war where in you’re not familiar in the battlefield.

But I am always been a good girl. I feel sorry afterwards. I leave behind every bad things you did to me when I already brought the bad karma you deserve. I know when to stop. I never had a hard time when moving on is the subject matter.

 

Too many wrong turns

It’s not that you should be proud of, but admitting the wrongs things made you a better one.

Sometimes, you don’t intend to hurt people you cared about so much but when you’re in a situation where you give in to a temptation that is oh-so heaven and you tend to forget the most painful gift you you will give to your significant other afterwards.

Putting too much effort and faith to a so-called friend. When that person turned out as a parasite.
Careless to what other people’s feelings. Being tactless and is not always beneficial to others. You must slow down from b*tching out a bit.

Each wrong turn will end to an unfamiliar side. Be composed and learn to ask someone that might guide you to the right path.

 

The life I chose.

The feeling of independence.

The decision to move in to Makati, away from my parents started last 2005. Being a call-centre girl taught me so much about life living without the help of my parents. Well I did live without them when I was in college. In my dorm days. But it’s different now ‘coz every expenses I made from toiletries to every meal I take, it will come from my own pocket. House rent, credit cards, everything. Such a challenge managing my own finances.

The experience of night life, out-of-town trips, sleep-overs…. I have all the time in the world without asking their permission. My every pay-off splurge to Mango, Topshop, etc.

Sometimes, I still missed mama’s nag. Watching tv with them. I’m still their youngest daughter at heart….